I’ve had it far less bad than you, but I remember the horror of looking at the clock at 2:45 or some godforsaken hour and just knowing there is not enough time left to sleep in order to have a productive and decent-feeling day the next day.
it seems for me, the beta blocker has taken the worst edge off of my sleep problems, though there are still the nights my brain wakes me at 2 am and decides to remind me of some horribly awkward thing I said 30 years ago, or remind me about that thing I used to worry about but haven’t recently.
Reading for years about your sleepless nights and horrifying “cocktails” you battle it with absolutely terrifies me. I can’t imagine what cumulative effect of all this brain-bullying might be. How are you able to function – and function so brilliantly and consistently if this blog is an indication – I have no idea. Speaks of your incredible will and natural strength, I guess.